To Be Honest....

It has been about two months since I started my blog, and "The Biggest Loser" contest that I started at work ends tomorrow. I've been thinking a lot about where I'm at and where I wanted to be. I wanted to be the winner of the contest... $290 could have really come in handy. However, what I wanted more than that was to get back on track. Overall, I am back on track. Some days are just easier to be on track than others....

I'm down 5 pounds from when I started the contest at work. I've been at about 5 pounds down for a few weeks. Some might say I've hit a plateau. I haven't really gained, I haven't really lost. Have I hit a plateau? No, what I've done is not been 100% committed to my goal. I could be wishy washy and say I've hit a plateau. However, if I'm being totally honest with myself, and take a good look at myself, what I see is I haven't worked the program to the best of my ability.

The last two weeks have been rough in the weight loss department. I moved in with my boyfriend, however, I wanted my son to go to his school until Spring Break and to start the new school after break. So, what that meant for me was about 2 hours of extra driving everyday to get him back and forth each day. Time, that I would normally be working out. :( I've learned that my body CRAVES cardio and I cannot lose without it. I could have penciled in a little bit of time for working out, however, I didn't. I can eat perfect and if I don't workout, I'm not going to lose. Also, since I workout like a madwoman when I'm "on game" I get to eat extra. It is a hard adjustment to eat less all of a sudden because I didn't workout to earn the extra points. Instead of adjusting my food intake, I didn't. So, in addition to not working out, I've been eating more points that I really have. Also, haven't been tracking the best either.

However, when I look at me overall... I'm still doing better than I would have done pre-weight watchers. Tonight I wanted guac with Doritos... old Erin would have mowed down the entire bag of Doritos. Instead, I took out a small bowl and counted my 11 chips for 3 points. I make better choices when I go out to eat. Now that I'm in one place, I've started working out again.

We all have our own path to go down on our weight loss journey. In my book... I've not hit a plateau, it was just another detour. If I truly want what I really want (health, to be thin, to have pants that fit, to not have stomach aches) then I have to be honest with myself everyday and make the choices it takes to get what I want.

"We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us. But every time we tell a lie, the thing that we fear grows stronger. " ~Tad Williams